but not

for love of You

i'm a sky on fire.

and for love of You

i come alive. 

it's Your sacred heart within me beating

it's all for You.

~Audrey Assad

sometimes, the above truth is all you have.

the reality that life is complicated. and hard. 

but i am a sky afire. 

all because of Him.

and right now, i'm feeling extremely frustrated and defeated. 

but i'm not my own.

hard-pressed but not crushed

perplexed but not in despair

struck down but not destroyed.

i am in awe of Him. 

this girl is a sky on fire.

all for Him.

i live in this world of but not. 

i am in this world but not of it. 

i am His. 

all for Him. 

this sky afire.

{this playdate with my King}

rest

via Pintrest

five minute fridays. we write for five, and only five, minutes. no editing, no overthinking, no backtracking. linking up with the gypsy mama.

the word

REST.


now GO...

i was not going to do five-minute Friday today.

no, no, no. i had plans for this morning's post. 

inspired by this song i heard last night in a moment of iTunes inspiration. never before heard, just letting go and letting this song flood me and my exhausted heart over and over again until i was full.

i was going to do my thing.

and then i awoke this morning to see the word of choice. and i wept.

oh, what delight my King must take in me. He knew i must write on this thing called "rest." 

because i don't do it enough. not ever ever ever.

i like to fill myself to the brim and overflowing with plans and life and dreaming that never seems to run dry. i'm overcome by my own busy and to-do lists. 

even this day has so much packed within in, and it's barely half-past nine. 

i am restless. so so so restless. 

i just need rest.

i sit here weeping with exhaution and refreshment as it pours over me. this song plays in the background, one that brought this whole dream to a head. i cannot begin to express what mercies my King shows me this morning.

oh, how He knows what i need. even before i ask it.

i cannot stop this weeping at His love. how He knows me!

oh Jesus, how i adore You. how i ache, i yearn, i crave this thing called rest.

i cannot find it anywhere else

but in You. 

let me rest in You.

(also, i should tell you. on my iTunes, the song's length is five minutes. exactly.)

Still my heart / hold me close / Let me hear a still small voice / Let it grow, let it rise / Into a shout, into a cry / And I'm restless, I'm restless / 'Til I rest in You,  / let me rest in You / I'm restless, so restless / 'Til I rest in You, 'til I rest in You / Oh God, I will rest in You ~Audrey Assad, Restless