I was born with an enormous need for affection, and a terrible need to give it. ~Audrey HepburnI've constantly overflowing with something...some sort of feeling, emotion, or passion. I find it impossible to do things by halves.
When I fall in love with something, I hold nothing back in my quest to make the whole world aware of just how amazing my new delight is to me.
When I have joy, it flows from me like a bubbling stream. I can't contain what I'm feeling...there's something inside me that cries
release me.
set me free.
However, to my everlasting chagrin, it is not just the beautiful things that find their rapid way into the world from my lips and heart.
It is the ugly things too...those things which destroy beauty and break a thousand hearts.
When I am broken, my tears are endless and the world has never seemed blacker. I yearn for comfort or reassurance, and yet feel unworthy of the love being showered upon me.
When I am angry, the skies turn black and the boiling within me churns until I am almost sick with the tempest flooding from my eyes and mouth.
When I am wronged, or when I wrong others in any sort of way, I shatter. I feel as though I have made some unforgivable action, and that I am the bane of all those who say they love me.
It is then that the little voice inside me has turned from a exclamation of joy and delight, to a whimpering cry to the Heavens...crying out to the Heavens as the Psalmist did from his terrifying rocky hideaway from those who sought his death.
release me.
set me free
I was made for bigger than this. I was made to love like the sky, and dream like the wind.
My love is big, and made to be bigger,
His love is bigger still.
His forgiveness is a fountain.
I love much. I will be forgiven much.
He never breaks His promise...
and so He sets my heart free
to fly again.
"For this reason I say to you, her sins, which are many, have been forgiven, for she loved much; but he who is forgiven little, loves little.” ~Luke 7:47
