Wednesday, March 13, 2013

amen :: so be it

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i am in awe of the infinite. i am sitting and meditating hard on this word, amen. there is such depth in such a short word, flippantly flying off the tongue at the end of every prayer, at the pause in every causal heartwish.

but every time i finish a conversation with Him, i whisper a final plea.

amen.
so be it. 

and it's a sacred sort of whisper, the kind that resonate like the roots of a tree, solid in the earth but reaching up toward Heaven even still anchored deep in my memory.

because every word i speak He memorizes, and that's a little fearful to know that He cares so much about every letter that passes my lips that He remembers them all. every one.

and He likes me to ask Him. He knows what i need, but daddies like when their daughters come and ask them things, and Abba God wants me to lean on His knee and whisper, "can i please?"

it's the sacred amen, the faith found in the so be it, even in the shaky stillness when words come halting and hesitating. it's crying into the abyss and being caught up safe in the arms of the One who knew the second my footing trembled.

i thank God for everything which is natural which is infinite which is yes
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:: e.e. cummings

and so i'm becoming less and less afraid to reach up and brush the foot of the Cross because i climbed the hill on bloody hands and knees, whispering "amen, yes, and amen, and yes and amen again."

i'm lighting a candle and pressing my face to the floor because there's something mighty about the lowering, allowing Him to wash my feet because i'm clean already except for the dirt of today's road. and it's the infinite of His glory that swallows me whole. 

and i die to live, drown to breathe.

i'm finding myself
at a loss for words
and the funny thing is
:: it's okay ::
{{word of god speak // mercy me}}






10 comments:

  1. yes, He memorizes, cherishes your every word, thought, breath...

    beautiful, this

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  2. This is beautiful, and such a great explanation of prayer, and how He is faithful.

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  3. "it's the sacred amen, the faith found in the so be it, even in the shaky stillness when words come halting and hesitating. it's crying into the abyss and being caught up safe in the arms of the One who knew the second my footing trembled."

    and to this, i add, my amen.

    touched and blessed.

    thanks for sharing.

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  4. Your writing just leaves me breathless. You capture elegant beauty and the holy, the sacred. It is always a treat to meet your words here.

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  5. Hi Rachael
    Mysterious and beautiful! It breaks my heart when I often hear the preachers shouting to the congregation for an Amen. It cheapens the holiness of this beautiful word? Visiting via Emily's. Yet, I want to say amen to the holy privilege of being able to go to our Pappa, whispering our requests in His ear!
    Much love
    Mia

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  6. beautiful! thank you for reminding me to pause! :)

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  7. This is really just beautiful... you've brought the words and the images together in a way that speaks to my soul. Thank you so much!

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  8. Every word here is stunningly beautiful. So, so beautiful.

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  9. you capture the hush, the mystery of prayer so well here. i love the quietness of your words. they invite the reader to recognize a Presence in even the little things like saying "amen."
    beautiful, Rachel.

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I look at you and see all the ways a soul can bruise, and I wish I could sink my hands into your flesh and light lanterns along your spine so you know there's nothing but light when I see you. :: Shinji Moon