i'm honestly not sorry.
it's a dancing place, a place of scarves and bells and so much leaping to the music of glory as this soul magnifies again and again.
this year is barely twenty-two days old. and it's already the best year of my life. perhaps a cliche, a redundancy that everyone speaks in moments of joy. but this is more than this heart can bear.
:: i'm pregnant ::
these are words i still struggle to speak because of their newness and the awe that accompany their presence against my tongue. as the weeks are ticking by and my exhaustion is deepening and my appetite for every food in sight grows, i also start to smile broader. as this little one gets bigger within me, i cannot help but magnify.
:: i'm going to Europe ::
i'm boarding a plane to Germany and Prague with my little sister in April. i still am in utter awe to the point of falling to my knees with elation and wonder. in a matter of hours it went from maybe to impossible to official, and this trip is now in the middling stages of planning. and again, i magnify.
my soul doth magnify the Lord
and my spirit rejoices in God, my Saviour.
and then in the moments of darkness when hope seems barely fingertips from reach, i remember this.
these dancing moments where glory brushes the earth and i find myself streaking cheeks with earth in lines of warrior paint and the drums of pounding hearts set the beat for my soul to leap.
oh, i am brave, soul doors thrown open to let the sun warm the broken corners.
oh praise Him.
:: EDIT :: Europe has fallen through. and though my heart broke all afternoon and tears flowed like water, i am still rejoicing. because there is something here for me, something to which i should cling. and home is where i should be now, i see. and i am still magnifying.