Friday, September 23, 2011

growing

five minute fridays. we write for five, and only five, minutes. no editing, no overthinking, no backtracking. linking up with the gypsy mama.


the word
GROWING

now GO...

how fitting that this would come today.

today i am 21. 


as of my waking, i am another year old.


it feels like the strangest of emotions all wrapped up into a simple time frame of 24 hours. 

but today this step has been made, whether i wanted it to come or not.

i'm in the eternal process of aging. but what about growing?

am i growing? i suppose it depends on what you mean by growing. i stopped physically growing at the age of 14 and have not risen an inch in height since then.

i suppose that makes me feel small. 

no, not suppose. it does.

honestly, it's hard to feel super confidence at a minuscule 5'0. 

{photo by PinkStudios Photography}
but that's not what matters, is it?

it's not the height or weight or eye colour or the consistency of my hair that makes me grow.

it's this heart of mine. this soul that aches and craves and sings out the strangest of songs as i learn and figure things out for myself. 

i'm growing on my own. maybe it's the life circumstances which i have endured at a very young age. those things mature you, they say.

or maybe it's just the lifting of my King. the turning of His weights, gentle and tender, speaking



grow

to my little seedling heart. 


in Him, it's okay to still be growing. this tiny work in progress.




21 and still growing. 




9 comments:

  1. Oh happy birthday - 21 is a magical age that I remember even though it feels so long long ago. And you're right, it's usually the growing on our insides that matters the most. And it sounds like you're doing just beautifully there.

    warmest of wishes
    Lisa-Jo

    PS Love that quote by Ann!

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  2. Hi Rachel! Thanks for stopping by my blog and taking the time to comment. What a lovely post and blog. Happy belated birthday!

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  3. Rachel! Happiest of birthdays to you! I hope today is magical and just perfect! You shine so brightly, and you're beautiful inside and out. Have an amazing day! :)
    ♥ Kailyn

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  4. Beautiful! And happy birthday (again) to you Rachel! You are my favorite-est blogger in the world and I hope you have a wonderful birthday. :)

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  5. Happy, happy birthday! This is beautiful. :)

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  6. Happy birthday, beautiful friend! never stop growing. growing pains can hurt, but it's always worth it. i hope you've had a very special day. <3

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  7. ooh. i love this five minute friday idea. i have never seen this linky party before. i will have to try it sometime. thanks for sharing and happy birthday!

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  8. happy, happy, happy, happy, happy, birthday!
    I hope you enjoy being 21! may God bless you:-)

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  9. Happy, happy, happy, birthday, Rachel! o.O I can't believe I missed it...my bad. May this new year be a beautiful time of growing and serving our Lord! I appreciate your lovely writing style and way of making people feel special. <3

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I look at you and see all the ways a soul can bruise, and I wish I could sink my hands into your flesh and light lanterns along your spine so you know there's nothing but light when I see you. :: Shinji Moon